I’m so tired so exhausted. I just want to sleep. I have something on my mind and I don’t know what to do. Sorry but I can’t really go in to much depth. This id one of those ‘I am afraid that the wrong person will read this’ kind of things. No offense to those who have nothing at all to do with this and most don’t, but this is something I have to work out for myself. Everything relies on how well one event goes, and then I will work on it from there.
well moving on to less depressing news…
I got another letter from my Derek today. Made me smile. It is full of things that you don’t hear everyday, things that are kind of sappy but that need to be said sometimes. The kind of things that make you smile and the things you think of while day dreaming. And when coming from a certain someone these things are not as sappy as they may sound because you know that the person really truly means it. It is not just some lines fed to you that get you to fall madly in love. Those lines aren’t needed anymore. Aww isn’t that just cute?
I have so much shit to get done in the next few days. Get two college apps done tomorrow, get some clothes for Puerto Rico tomorrow, finish my scholarship form and give it to Mrs. Antunes, get my pay check, pack! Ahh and more, I just feel like typing everything out.
I had this read to me from someone I don’t know exactly what it said or exactly how it went but it was something along the lines of… There is an advantage to writing in a diary. You get to go back and read the past trials that you have gone through. And by doing that you see that they all got solved somehow. You see the pain you went through and the hardship that happened, but you also see that it all got better somehow someway. And with that you can relate it to current problems, knowing that somehow, sometime the problem will end, and sadly enough another problem will happen… yeah so it wasn’t exactly like that I added some of my own insight. But you get the picture.
goodnight
then || now
