I miss the old days. The days where I tried so hard to impress you. The days where I was nervous when you picked me up. The days when I was afraid I would say something wrong and was afraid I would lose yuo. The days I spent getting ready extra early so I would look perfect just for you. The days where songs meant something. Sneaking around in order to do a little something. Lying to parents in order to see you. Talking on the phone till crazy hours in the night. getting butterflies when I knew you were watching me. trying extra hard to please you. Getting giddy over tiny things. Waiting by the phone.

I guess I'm just a little sad. I mean we spend our whole lives looking for someone. and the best feeling in the world is at the begining. There is so much to learn, so much to explore and to find out. So many new things to try and so many corny things to hear and do. Then things get sort of old. The corny things don't happen as much. The sneaking around either. There isn't much else to learn or explore. There is only the same old stuff. I wish it could always be fresh and new. I wish getting picked up was as thrilling as it had been. I wish my heart would beat faster when you walking in the room. I wish songs meant what they did. I wish I got giddy over the tiny corny things.

don't get me wrong. I am happy. It's just sometimes I think about how I feel and how I felt. I do miss the freshness and the journey. but now the journey is over and things are not as exciting. I wish I was excited. I wish things were new. but I do love you.

then || now

11:02 p.m. || 03.21.03