its weird when I start to think about things. things like friends. Even things like walking and brushing teeth. I mean think about it really walking is such an awkward thing one foot in front of the other. it seems like such a natural inborn thing we dont even have to think about doing. but yet when I watch it, really watch it, its so out of place. brushing teeth. who thought of that in the first place? what an awkward thing to do. everything is awkward and I wonder if any of it really holds a purpose.

I'm not really sure where I was going with this entry. I think I had more to say but i reluctant to say it. i think i was going to touch the area of friendship. but yeah i dont think I want to enter that area right now. I'm not even sure if it is even worth it to ever mention it, because no amtter how many times i type the same thing or think the same thoughts that have no answers I am going to live the same life, nothing is going to change. so I might as well give up on the thoughts. saying then out loud really means nothing i suppose.

then || now

1:30 a.m. || 04.26.03