Snow day! Blah actually I hate snow but I ad things due in school tomorrow and I didn’t do them so I’m lucky I guess. I had the weirdest dreams last night. I think I had three that I can remember. And actually now that I am trying to remember, I can’t. And now that I think about it the three dreams may have been one dream with three parts, eh who knows? Well I know there was one where I was on an MTV show, ya know one of those real life or the new MADE kind of shows. Well I wanted to be skinny. And they sent me to get a liposuction. The doctor kept touching all of my insecure areas, pulling the fat even if it was only a little bit and saying “oh yes we should definitely get rid of this” I ran out of there crying because I am scared of surgery and pain. I wanted the liposuction but I didn’t want the pain that came afterwards…

Then this one I barely remember at all. But I know it had my Michelle in it and her boyfriend Ryan, and something to do with a getaway car. I’m not really sure what though, but Ryan was driving and we were running from something.

and the third one I don’t remember at all. I did remember it when I woke up but I don’t now. I hate how dreams do that. And I wonder do these dreams mean anything? What was I running from in the dream with Shell and Ryan? Does the liposuction mean something (haha that sounds funny) but really I wonder if my dreams are trying to tell me something?

well the dad is yelling again so I have to cut this entry short before I lose it.

then || now

11:31 a.m. || 02.07.03