Derek left me today, a month and ½ without him (just about) I’m kind of taking this opportunity to have “me” time. I mean having a boyfriend is wonderful I just haven’t been with friends in a while I see them in school and all, just not on weekends. And it’s not his fault at all we’re all kind of busy. So yeah I’m taking this free time to myself and hanging out with people like Michelle, Janelle, and my Eric till he leaves from school. Then there are some work people that said I have to dedicate some days to them too. I think this is gonna be good for both Derek and I.
A month and ½ is a long time though.

I’m babysitting Brendan tonight, I love him so much but tonight? A school night and before midterms when I am supposed to be studying. They’re leaving around 10 and won’t be back till after 2 so fun for me I get to wake up to feed the baby. It’s not like its going to be a hard thing to do. I mean all Brendan does is sleep, eat and shit… literally. He’s a good baby. So hopefully I can get some work done and enjoy sitting with my baby.

I went running today, it felt good I mean I haven’t done much since I quit cheerleading. I’m going to start eating healthy and exercising more. I don’t want to end up some fatty who can’t even get out of bed in the morning.

then || now

7:12 p.m. || Sunday, Jan. 12, 2003